New Years at home.
Published by Nix Sidhe on Thursday, January 01, 2009 at 1:46:00 AM
New Years at home.
Originally uploaded by Nix Sidhe
I rarely talk about when things are awry, they are in such a state now. I decided to spend New Year's Eve at home alone this year. I haven't done that in I don't even know how long. I was always the one hosting the parties or pushing to go out somewhere. I have been really deeply profoundly sad for a while now. I can go through the motions, make a day to day life... but in the end I'm just really sad.
I don't make resolutions. But, I do know that I will not allow this sadness to carry on throughout 2009. I won't make it through if I do. The best way I can put it is that I am unwilling to talk about it, which may not sound healthy but it's the truth. I can't/won't go into too many details.
I am working on it. That's the most I can/will say right now. Please don't be alarmed if my posts are less than chipper and sarcastic. Please don't worry if I don't say anything for a while.
I'm working at it.
I hope this year brings you happiness. Or rather, I hope that you find out how to make the happiness happen. I'm totally pulling for you and I hope that you feel better soon. I'm here if you ever want to talk!
I am behind on bills and getting accrued interest on shit for late payments (I pay my shit on time though so the MAIL is fucked up) Opening late payment bills was the first time I've been seeeeriously bummed in a while. No gal, no money, basically no job since business has been so bad.
Whateve. We got EACHOTHER!!!! Let's go get laid at the New Cat?
I hope you do find happiness this new year, and work through whatever it is that is bringing you down...
I totally understand how you feel as I go through those same moods more than often. I hope this year finds you in better spirits. xxx