Sparkles.
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Well, I was hoping to follow up sooner to that last sad-time post. I've just been either busy or distracted. Between work and life (I'm actually trying to keep social engagements and follow through with my plans! Can you imagine? An end to Hermit-Nichole?) i've been really going going going. I love it. As long as I make sure to keep some time set aside for myself, I'm golden.

The biggest news I can share is that I've booked a flight to San Diego for my birthday vacation. I'll be leaving March 18th and returning on the 22nd. It started out as a trip to see Steve, but he's still uncertain if he'll even be there in March. Instead I'm going to visit a new friend and try to cram in some time to see some CA friends and PA friends who have moved there.

Am I nervous? Sure. I haven't done this in ages. (By "this" I mean flying the entire way across the country to meet someone I don't know from day to day life.) I'm mostly excited though. I had an epiphany just a week ago and now I am doing my best to set things in motion and make some life decisions. I've never big on goals for myself or thinking about the future, but I think now is the time. I've never seen myself as someone to be proactive in this way, but I know now what I have to do.

Cryptic? Maybe. Who cares.

I've found my mind to be a mess, but the silver lining? I've found out (more like been reminded) of the amazing support system I have in my life. Supportive, wonderful, creative, lovely people. I am really truly blessed with the friends I've made in all of my adventures.

I'm going to end this with the lyrics to a Sleater Kinney song that has been haunting my mind lately.

Good Things - Sleater Kinney

got this feeling when i heard your name the other day
couldn't say it, couldn't make it go away
it's a hard place, can't be friends, we can't be enemies
it's just too much, feel the weight crushing down on my face

the hardest part is things already said
getting better, worse, i can not tell
why do good things never wanna stay?
some things you lose, some things you give away

broken pieces, try to make it good again
is it worth it, will it make me sick today
it's a dumb song, but i'll write it anyway
it's an old mistake, but we always make it, why do we

the hardest part is things already said
getting better, worse, i can not tell
why do good things never wanna stay?
some things you lose, some things you give away

this time, it'll be alright
this time, it'll be okay
this time, it'll be alright
this time, it'll be okay

the hardest part is things already said
getting better, worse, i can not tell
why do good things never wanna stay?
some things you lose, some things you give away
some things you lose, some things you give away