Serene.
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I wasn't really going to go into more detail about this, but Billy and Hannah's comments today have made me realize that I need to be proud of this choice that I've made. For a year and a half I have been giving very serious thought to the option of having a tubal ligation done. What does that mean? I'm having my tubes tied.

Yes, I know this is irreversible. Yes, I know this is a huge decision and I am "so young." Here's the thing... I've been thinking about this for a long time now. I have been saying since I was probably 10, that I don't want children. I was never the type to want to carry around baby dolls and play "Mommy." I also never planned my "dream wedding" or some bullshit.

If I ever do decide that I'd like to parent something and having a cat just isn't cutting it, I'll adopt. There are so many abandoned children out there who need people to care for them that I can't fathom birthing another one. (I can't fathom BIRTHING anything... yuck.)

So, tomorrow afternoon I am going to the hospital and having the procedure done. What do I need right now? Support, love, hugs, ice cream, and more support/hugs. By this time tomorrow I will be a different person. I am excited. I am responsible. I am so very ready.

Thank you to everyone who is supporting me in this decision.